Inspired by a recent conversation I had with my mother

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I feel like I keep hitting my limit

Over and over and over again

I am swallowed by an infinite horizon 

And dragged deep under the water 

My lungs are filled with salt 

Sinking is inevitable

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It feels good to be happy

Our hearts touch,

And for a moment I can feel the sun

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But I am so ashamed

My soul ripped open by my own merciless words,

Left skinless and raw 

My spirit bleeds on the ocean floor

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Because I deserve it

I dont deserve anything

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I am tired

And I cant seem to get up

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